urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182 chan182 chan182 2007-01-20T03:12:06Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:17686 2007-01-20T03:12:06Z 2007-01-20T03:12:06Z getting ready to go to the bar again with the guys at work. hope to have fun, probably wont, will i drink, probably not, dont really like the taste of alcohol period. who knows how things will turn out, well i guess i will, and just see what happens here later tonight. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:17648 2007-01-15T05:00:47Z 2007-01-15T05:00:47Z sitting here, watching old clips of old shows. wow, life is too short. i wish i can go back in time and relive my childhood. it was so much easier back then. wake up at 6 am on saturday mornings. soo many good memories. im sure everyone remembers watching pete and pete, and salute your shorts, god, why does time have to fly by so quick, i hope i dont hit 50 with regrets. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:17211 2007-01-07T02:27:42Z 2007-01-07T02:27:42Z 3CE i miss all my friends right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:17125 2007-01-07T02:18:34Z 2007-01-07T02:18:34Z all my friends either dont live around here, or are asleep, or on leave, or with their girlfriend. It always seems im the only one who wants to go out and do something except drink. All there really is to do here is goto the bars. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:12187 2006-03-08T00:06:32Z 2006-03-08T00:06:32Z Senses Fail Went to indy over the weekend and hanged out with my sis, missed school yesterday. sittn her just thinking now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:11726 2006-01-19T17:37:49Z 2006-01-20T03:22:36Z Muse & Finch Feeling pretty bumed out here. Not knowing what to do. Dont think anyone can help, because no one really has. All everyone do is make me feel smaller and worst, than i already do. I try to start the day fresh, but the frustration is too much. For that when ever i sit with people, and try to talk to them, i have nothing to say in the conversations, because they talk about things that i have yet to experienced. I hate when they get to me and ask me about the subject, becuase it just makes me feel awful in the stomach, these are things i try to avoid. I hate talking about certain things, for i feel it is my fault i never have this certain exeperience, i just feel real uncomfortable around everyone. I dont like talking about certain things, cause in the end. I just want to go hit something, or just lay down in my bed. Maybe the reasons i dont have these certain experiences is because maybe its not me, maybe its cause my friends, i feel sometimes they hold me back. I also hate hanging with my friends sometimes, for its just them braging about women, how they will always have some girl come out and hang with them, I a lucky enough to just have someone look at me or even talk to me. I someitmes feel like i dont want to get out of my bed or leave my room. I cant even have any privacy in my room, cause there is no lock, and i hate it when people just walk in. My room is my favorite place to be. Cause i know what is going on in there. I hate the confusion, the chase, in other words, reality sucks, but i know i have to deal with it. I wish that i never would have to leave my room. I hate dealing with other peoples problems, i have enough of my own, im always just so frustrated with what i have going on, that when someone else thinks its so bad for them, i just get pissed when they try to blame things on me cause of a girl. Why does everything somehow end being about women, relations, friendships, things can be destroyed, and i feel i can lose some friends because of girls. But i try not to. Why is everthing so confusing, i already have a hard time understaniding a few things in this world, in what goes on in my life. I wish some of my friends would quit trying to put me down, for when you try to impress someone, all they do is just pick on me just TO IMPRESS SOMEONE!! and that makes me fucking mad, for i dont think that person would even deserve to be my friend, because i do alot for my friends, i never ask for anything back, but they should know not to just trash talk to me. I dont have the greatest comebacks, im not the greatsest fighter, im just a regular kid, and you know what I HAVE FEELINGS TOO DAMN IT. Some of you guys, i just want to hit you so hard that you go into the hospital, for the things you guys say just pist me off, and this isnt something that happens once in a while, it seems like it happens pretty often, pretty much anytime theres a girl around. So from now on, dont expect me to give rides, to pick you guys up, and anytime there is alchol and women around you guys, i will just leave, im done thinking about drinking, or ever try drinking again. And if you want to impress someone, impress me that you can be a decent person in life, i dont need to come out to your guys place to hang out, i have other places to go, who wont give me soooooooo much shit over stupid things, you guys bitch over some of the dumbest things i ever hear. Well that is it for today, i will continue this later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:9558 2005-10-31T17:31:27Z 2005-10-31T17:31:27Z 3 people killed in rosedale this morning, and now we are all here in school at lockdown, this blows. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:9197 2005-10-21T04:11:35Z 2005-10-21T04:11:35Z 1. Who are you?<br />2. Are we friends?<br />3. When and how did we meet?<br />4. Do/Did you have a crush on me?<br />5. Would you kiss me?<br />6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />7. Describe me in one word.<br />8. What was your first impression?<br />9. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />10. What reminds you of me?<br />11. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />12. If i was Ron Burgundy from Anchorman, who would you be?<br />13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />14. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?<br /><br />WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:<br /><br />I said I liked you?<br />I kissed you?<br />I lived next door to you?<br />I stole something?<br />I was hospitalized?<br />I got into a fight and you weren't there?<br />I ran away from home?<br /><br />WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:<br /><br />Personality?<br />Eyes?<br />Face?<br />Hair?<br />Clothes?<br />Mannerisms?<br />Family?<br />Sense of Humor?<br /><br />WOULD YOU:<br /><br />Be my friend?<br />Lie to make me feel better?<br />Spread rumors about me?<br />Keep a secret if I told you one?<br />Loan me some cash?<br />Hold my hand?<br />Take a bullet for me?<br />Keep in touch?<br />Try and solve my problems?<br />Love me?<br />Date me?<br /><br /><br />put an x in the () for each you would do for me:<br />() go out with me?<br />() give me your number?<br />() let me kiss you?<br />() watch a movie with me...<br />() let me take you out to dinner?<br />() be my bf/gf?<br />() have a fling with me?<br />() Listen to me if I called you even if you were out with all of your friends?<br />() buy me a drink like a sobe or soda?<br />() take me home for the night?<br />() Would you let me sleep in your bed?<br />() Sing car kareoke w/ me?<br />() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?<br />() re-post this for me to answer your questions?<br />() Let me give you a piggyback ride? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:7652 2005-10-02T01:43:56Z 2005-10-02T01:44:37Z The Rocket Summer-Skies So Blue Went to theredracer show last night, it was really good. I got my paycheck and its already gone, cause i spent it mostly on the video camera that i went and got to tape the show with. I kinda bored right now. Went to terre haute again today for no reason. Just waiting for someone to call, not sure if she will. Thats really about it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:6054 2005-09-01T17:38:06Z 2005-09-01T17:39:11Z The Rocket Summer Best Damn Lyrics in the world<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />don't try to hide the mistakes i made this time but please try and listen cause i'm breaking my heart tonight so you can see whats inside cause wherever you go, well thats where i'll go i'd do so much ill show but you won't know so heres a song to show for the things i've blown but im sorry so... thats the only way that i know and all ive learned is what we hate we make, what we hate we make theres no time for hating but what we hate we make something is about to change cause i can feel it in my heart today and you know it's not the first time but i bet it won't be the same cus right now im at an all time low so heres a song just so you won't go cause that's the only thing that i know and i will start with a verse then a bridge, write a chorus so we can all sing along with everything we got but between you and me this song would be written for us but i know thats not enough to say im sorry what we hate we make, what we hate we make theres no time for hating but what we hate we make and you will know what you will be yeah, you will know what you mean to me yeah you will know that truthfully i am sorry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:5642 2005-08-31T22:01:58Z 2005-08-31T22:01:58Z rufio, the rocket summer, brand new GOD, why is it so hard to tell a girl that you like her. I have been wanting to go out with her for like a year. But i doubt she would have any interests in me. Hell, i doubt any girl thinks im cute or what ever. Right now, if i have a chance with someone, im gonna take it. I am tired of being by myself for 3 fucking long years. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:5576 2005-08-30T20:33:56Z 2005-08-30T20:33:56Z Hawthorne Heights Well, i am now officially in the Air Force, they say my leave date is july 5, 2006. That is not to long from now. Cant wait to get the hell out of here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:5031 2005-08-24T18:17:12Z 2005-08-24T18:17:12Z Who like my chopsticks?<br />Hit you in the shit wit my little ass dick.<br />Yellow!<br />If you wanna see me eat jello.<br />I never seen nothin like you before.<br />I can kick you.<br />Higher than you can kick me.<br />I can kick you way up into a tree.<br />Who wants a taste of my oolaw tea?<br />ho ha ha ho ha hoo tee gee!<br />Everybody in the phone books named chang.<br />Wanna see my wang?<br />Never!<br />Good, go hit the gong with a bang.<br />Wha?!<br />Everybody wanna see me throw a fireball,<br />but thats not right.<br />Not in real life.<br />You will fall<br />down and break your leg.<br />Everybody wanna see me break a leg<br />Well I dont!<br />But I like fried rice,<br />and I got lice.<br />ching chow woo ching wang woo wice<br />That aint nice!<br />For a fortune cookie I always charge you twice.<br />Delivery is free, but not from me!<br />I always call a dollar fifty.<br />Fit fifty five.<br />Wanna see me go "gah!"?<br />Hit you wit the light.<br />hyaa!<br />Whoa! When I hit you with the shit,<br />do a split,<br />take a shit,<br />after you eat my shit.<br />Kung fu.<br />Want my buffet?<br />You fuckin gay!<br />ow, I'll go hit you wit the hay<br />Stay tha fuck away!<br />Hit you in the balls.<br />Only americans eat duck sauce!<br />And my soy sauce is for you.<br />I can put it in your chew.<br />Watch this, I can tiptoe while you take a piss.<br />In my bathroom, spy on you, while your little boy shits.<br />Hoooooooyaa!<br />I can kick you if you don't pay the bill.<br />And if you want a little mint, thats fifty cent!<br />Bitch!<br />Everything costs a little bit!<br />So dont expect nothin for free!<br />At least from me.<br />Ching chang chew-ey.<br />I got you, from taiwan city and hong kong.<br />I could smoke a bong, and I could do it all night long.<br />And dont mistake me for a Viet Kong.<br />I can get you,<br />and tackle you, spank you.<br />Never see me when I get you and bag you.<br />Rope you up,<br />and put you in a bamboo cage, and make you feel all my rage.<br />Poke you wit a little stick till you bleed.<br />Your buddies too!<br />Come napalm me.<br />God damn-That shit burn!!<br />Blew away my whole city.<br />Ho Chi Min, shoot a load on your chin.<br />God damn!<br />As i said, going go to buy.<br />And if you wanna come on in,<br />you could walk into my world where the yellow shit begin.<br />ooy aw!<br />Can't be tamed!<br />I got a chance to control your brain and its called<br />Egg Foo Young, and Low Mein<br />So come on in baby and have it just the same.<br />Hoya!<br />Hah!<br /><br />(Hoy-yah<br />Hey, Ho Chi Min!)<br />(ahh) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:4704 2005-08-24T17:25:54Z 2005-08-24T17:25:54Z Well, this entire week has been pretty busy, i went and took my ASVAB on monday, and tonight i have to fill out some paper work to get ready for my physical next monday. Im trying to get a hold of my sister to give me a hair cut and bleach it also. But shes always busy. Brandon started Ivy Tech yesterday. So as of next monday ill officially be in the air force, but ill be on waiting for leave. Cant wait to get out of this fucking state. There is nothing here for me anyway. I dont have a good relationship with anyone, and i have the worst luck with women as it is. I doubt ill ever have a girlfriend for a long time, and the reason why i am so sure of that, is that if i dont have a chance with someone like kailee, or a girl that meets me for the first time like korrine, i dont think any girl finds me attractive. and if i could get one, i wouldnt do anything stupid to fuck it up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:4428 2005-08-19T18:48:05Z 2005-08-19T18:48:05Z theredracer, underoath, taking back sunday Well, im here in peebles class, just listening to music. Its been a pretty good day, this and english r my only real classes. and now that im here its back to the korean jokes, but its all good. Im thinking about bleaching my hair tomorrow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:4102 2005-08-16T17:29:31Z 2005-08-16T17:29:31Z Well, i just got home a bit ago from school, man was it boring. Dont know what im gonna do today, probably clean up the car a bit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:3862 2005-08-14T22:35:15Z 2005-08-14T22:35:15Z theredracer Im am tired, it has been a boring day. The weather is real shitty, and no one is around. tomorrow im suppose to find out on the part for my car, so maybe things will get better. Hopefully, my car can be done by this weeken, cause i dont think my dad will let me take the monte carlo in the rain, which i can see why, sense it leaks and all, plus its really valuable to him. uhhhhhhhhh, nothing to say much here, cause nothing interesting has happened. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:3632 2005-08-14T03:56:39Z 2005-08-14T03:56:39Z As I Lay Dying, HIMSA Lets see, my duster fucked up, so now its at the chevy dealer for who knows how long, i went into a ditch with my dads monte carlo, what else needs to go wrong on the last week of vacation. I got off work a while ago and i forgot to clock out. Korrine is trying to hook me up with some girl. I went to a show last night, it was alright. Sucks that hawiian aint here, otherwise id be hanging out with him. Ive decided to leave next year in june for the air force, so basically after graduation, im gone. i was suppose to go to a party last night, but couldnt, o well. I need a haircut, i am here by myself, sucks that no one is around. school starts in 3 days. well thats it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:3333 2005-08-06T23:08:51Z 2005-08-06T23:08:51Z Rise Against Havent done much lately, just been hanging with brandon, and playing games. Went to korrines house last night, i wont even get into that, cause u can probably find out what happened in brandons lj sometime soon. Anyways, not much going on this weekend accept the battle of the bands thats going on right now, then the racer show tomorrow. Signing up for school next week, and thats about it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:3298 2005-08-01T22:28:36Z 2005-08-01T22:28:36Z Im home alone, bored out of my mind, no place to go to, no one to go see, today is just a boring day.<br /><br /><br /><br />"Longview"<br /><br />Sit around and watch the tube,but nothing's on<br />Change the channels for an hour or two<br />Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit<br />I'm sick of all the same old shit<br />In a house with unlocked doors<br />And I'm fucking lazy<br /><br />Bite my lip and close my eyes<br />Take me away to paradise<br />I'm so damn bored I'm going blind<br />And I smell like shit<br /><br />Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving<br />I sure as hell can't do it by myself<br />I'm feeling like a dog in heat<br />Barred indoors from the summer street<br />I locked the door to my own cell<br />And I lost the key<br /><br />Bite my lip and close my eyes<br />Take me away to paradise<br />I'm so damn bored I'm going blind<br />And I smell like shit<br /><br />I got no motivation<br />Where is my motivation?<br />No time for the motivation<br />Smoking my inspiration<br /><br />Sit around and watch the phone, but no one's calling<br />Call me pathetic, call me what you will<br />My mother says to get a job<br />But she don't like the one she's got<br />When masturbation's lost its fun<br />You're fucking breaking<br /><br />Bite my lip and close my eyes<br />Take me away to paradise<br />I'm so damn bored<br />I'm going blind<br />And loneliness has to suffice<br />Bite my lip and close my eyes<br />I was slipping away to paradise<br />Some say,"Quit or I'll go blind."<br />But it's just a myth urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:3038 2005-08-01T01:19:53Z 2005-08-01T01:19:53Z Underoath, The Used Well, hawiian is gone, brandon went ozzfest, really dissapointed that i didnt go, dont know where vince is. So im here bymyself and bored, and chatting with brandon. He told me he got his nose broken, but had a kick ass time, which is good cause he had a lousy time at warped tour. Not much to say, except school starts in like 2 weeks, so that sux but its my last year anyway. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:2657 2005-07-21T17:27:41Z 2005-07-21T17:27:41Z Well, warped tour was awsome yesterday, i went with brandon and hawiian, it was my first one, and i think its the best time ive ever had in my life. I got to see so many bands, and got a lot of free stuff. I only ran into brandon once, but i didnt see hawaiian at all. I cant wait for next year now.<br />Well, hawiian leaves on the 31st, and he was happy yesterday, cause it was his first big concert. Cant wait for the dempsey and racer shows, then after that, i just wanna get my senior year over.<br /><br />here are all the bands that i saw, to anyone who cares.<br /><br />Hawthorne Heights<br />Senses Fail<br />The Starting Line<br />The Offspring<br />The Matches<br />Thrice<br />Matchbook Romance<br />My Chemical Romance<br />Fall Out Boy<br />Atryu<br />Avenged Sevenfold<br />Relient K urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:2510 2005-07-11T02:53:31Z 2005-07-11T02:53:31Z Last Flight Home, Silverstein I went and saw Batman Begins a few days ago, in my oppinion, the best on eof them all. Anyways, got home from a church thing in rockville, and saw kyle, mina, and kailee, it wasnt that bad. Better than all the other youth groups uve been to. Im taking vince to warped tour with me next week, and being the good friend i am, im even buying his ticket, really, who would wanna drive an hour 1/2 by themselves. I got drunk with friends a couple of weeks ago, fun night, but man did i feel like shit the next day, plus having to goto work in the morning, i sign up for the air force in like a month, man what a way to start out my senior year, summer goes by to fast. I cant belive ill be moving next year. It has been a good day, vince has been telling me and my brother on what happened when he went to vegas, lucky bastard. By the way, i would like some tips on how to get a girl, i dont know if im being pathetic here, but who could i talk to huh, brandon?! Anyways, i really would like to have a relationship, someone please help, i havent had a girl in like 3 years. There are people i have in mind but doubt that they would ever have any interest in me, i dont know what my problem is, maybe i should go to a to a psychologists or something. I guess this is kinda my last resort of asking for help from people. I dont know, but one things for sure, i will never go to another stupid dance, including prom, unless i have a grilfriend, because both dances i went to, FUCKING SUCKED. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:2081 2005-06-21T02:30:50Z 2005-06-21T02:30:50Z The Rocket Summer Wow, havent updated in a while, not like anyone reads these anyway. Went to a racer show a few days ago, hanged with hawiian, vince got drunk. I took my seats and carpet out of my car to put in new ones, well a new carpet, but also better seats. Im so pissed that i have to start my cd collection over, cause they all got stolen, its complete bull shit. Now i only have a few left, but theres one i dont listen to, and i just bought it, a band called red car or something like that. Well im done wasting anyones time reading this, have doing what ever your doing on the web, and brandon, go outside. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chan182:1829 2005-06-08T20:56:42Z 2005-06-08T20:56:42Z Alkaline Trio Well, i went and saw lords of dogtown, and it was fucking awsome. I bought a belt for the first time in my life also. Talking to brandon now, and he's all i wont have a good with korrine mood, and im telling him just try, dont ruin anything, i got through it and now were able to have a good time. So yeah, not much has happened so far, just work. Im going to see dempsey tomorrow with between the nightmare, so its gonna be a good show. Well thats it.